This post feels a little belated and rambly, but I definitely needed the extra reflection time, and am just going to go with it. The end of 2016 flew by in a blur of work, here and there, and everywhere, ergo I didn’t get much, or really any, time to reflect on the year that was, and the year that will be. I’m not keen on “resolutions” or making big, momentous proclamations at the start of the new year, but I do like to give some thought on positive changes moving forward, and as well as emphasis on leaving the toxic behind.
I know in the greater realm, 2016 was a bit of a garbage fire. However, for me personally, it will go down as one of the best of my life. It brought me my son, Baby E, who is almost 9 months old already (WHAT!?!?). It was a year of growth, of change, of joy, of hardship, of little memories, of life-altering moments.
However, I’m not going to sit here and tell you that every single second was the-best-time-ever, and I enjoyed every single moment of every single day. That would be a lie. It’s fucking hard. Some days I’m so exhausted I don’t even know what to do with myself. I love Baby E more than anything and everything, but every once and awhile I just want to leave the house for an hour without thinking about pumping, or nursing, or nap times, or what-have-you. Some days I just want to sit on the couch for fifteen minutes, with nothing but peace and quiet for company, and not be obsessing over what I *should* be doing instead. Sometimes (wait, all the time) I want to shake off this overwhelming, stifling, choking guilt associated with being a working mom, even though I know it’s what’s best for our family, and thus what’s best for Baby E as well. BUT, I wouldn’t change a thing. Day in, day out, it’s pretty amazing being a mom, watching Baby E change and grow, and knowing it’s because of me, and The Hubs, and our love.
All of this to say, I’m not really going to set any concrete goals this year. I love this space, and yearn for it when I’m missing in action. I love reading, perusing your blogs, interacting and getting giddy over books.
I have been, and will continue to read to Baby E every day. I also feel like I’ve slowly been able to reintroduce a somewhat daily not-just-board-books reading habit back into my life, if only for fifteen to twenty minutes per day. I’m planning on attempting to read some new releases for review consideration, but will greatly limit what I request and accept. I’m hopeful I can visit my favorite book blogs on the regular, comment here and there, and otherwise engage on social media when I’m up to it. I’m loosely planning on at least one blog post here per week, and any more than that will be a bonus. With that being said, I’m also really going to try to give myself a dang break during the times when none of this happens the way I want it to.
I have many ideas swirling around in my brain vortex. Blog post ideas about curating a child’s library. Some non-traditional review inklings. A gander at some non-bookish blog posts, perhaps. Would anyone be into that? I want to develop and stick with a fitness routine. I want to meal plan, food prep, and eat healthy most of the days of the week.
Lastly, most importantly, and most encompassing of *everything* mentioned above and elsewhere, is I want to concentrate on teaching myself the skills to live a more intentional life, to remove the clutter, strike a balance, and focus on what matters the most.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you for stopping by, and here’s to the new year. Hope it treats you and yours well.